I gained a few pounds last week. But you know what else I did? Spent time with my best friend, had some froyo, sat on the beach, met some awesome new people, tried out Olympic lifting, ate lots of delicious food, got some sweet new swag, enjoyed some good company, and set a couple new PRs – deadlifted 300 fucking pounds and squatted 230lbs for 5 singles (btw, my current PR song is Shining by DJ Khaled, Beyoncé and Jay-Z, you’re welcome 😉). So at the end of the day, do you know what the number on the scale means to me? Nothing.
The scale doesn’t define me. My life and happiness do not revolve around it. It’s not my life. Yes, I love fitness and shaping my body and seeing what I’m capable of and lifting heavy weights and pushing myself to my limits and taking on new challenges but life is for LIVING and loving and experiencing. I’ve been in that place where food and training and macros have nearly paralyzed me and I missed out on a lot of good times because of it. Not anymore. Fitness provides me an outlet to better myself with each passing day and when I look back on my life, I’ll know that I did everything I could to be the best version of me possible. I’ll know that I never quit. I’ll know that I tried and did everything I wanted to do. I’ll know that I loved my journey and learned to love myself along the way. Fitness helped me gain confidence and developed me into the strong independent woman I am today, the woman that constantly wants more and goes out and gets it. I’m a go-getter, a dream chaser, a risk-taker, a life-liver.
A lot of people look at fitness models and competitors and even just your average gym rat as narcississts. They think all we care about is looking good. What people don’t realize is that fitness not only shapes our bodies but also our minds. It’s an outlet for us. A way to express our feelings, to challenge ourselves, improve our health and well-being. It allows us to forget about whatever else is going on in the world and focus on bettering ourselves. Fitness shapes a strong mind, body and soul because it requires hard work, dedication, determination, patience, commitment, motivation, and so much more. Us “fitness people” just want to be the best that we can be. I want to set goals and feel the pride of achieving them, I want to experience the pain of failure to force me to work harder toward success, I want to face my fears and then look back and laugh at them, I want to live a life that I’m proud of.
Life is short. Life is beautiful. Life is what you make it and I’m making mine about a hell of a lot more than a number on a scale.
To me, life is continuously being hungry. The meaning of life is not simply to exist, to survive, but to move ahead, to go up, to achieve, to conquer.
– Arnold Schwarzenegger